Self-reflection on a PP day

Today's weight: 116 lbs

Total weight lost between May - Sept 2011: 18 lbs
Weight RE-GAINED since Sept 2011: 6 lbs

Breakfast:
Nothing

Lunch:
Salmon, meatballs

Snack:
Instant Dukan cheesecake, chocolate scrambled eggs

Dinner:
Ribs (I know -- not the healthiest choice...)

I've been thinking lately about my seemingly never-ending quest to lose weight, and came across a quote this morning by A. W. Tozer that really made me pause: "Everyone person is really what he or she secretly admires. If I can learn what you admire, I will know what you are, for people are what they think about when they are free to think about what they will..."

Depending on what's happening in my life, there have been various things that I've wished for myself (to be) or that I tend to daydream about. Lately, though, the thoughts that I catch myself thinking in my free time tend to center around food, recipes, and weight. I'm not that into cooking, but I LOVE food, eating, and even just thinking about food & eating.

At the end of the day, though, I want my thoughts to be consumed with more than just eating & weight. Although my identity is wrapped up in a number of roles (e.g., wife, mom, daughter, friend), I sometimes find myself reducing my entire sense of worth to a number on a scale.

And everyone knows how reliable scales are...   :P